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You laid quiet, eyes fixed on the clock
In front of you, I sat and stared
You muttered something inaudible for me
I didn't mind, I wanted to flee
But my heart wants to stay here with you despite the silence
The brimming awkwardness of the night
Like the wall with its hard rock
Your convictions, formidable to block

Will you allow me to read you
Against the noise in your mind
Against the misery in your heart
Against you screaming at me
I didn't mind, I wanted to flee
But my heart wants to stay here with you despite the silence
When you stood and opened the door
Out in this room with its torn wallpaper
Out of my life forever

For another moment in life...
Stood up and chased the shadows
Whichever the hungry darkness ate
Desolate, let it be
I didn't mind, I wanted to flee
But my heart wants to stay here with you despite the silence
And wait for the same puzzled living soul
Lost in his own labyrinth
With the door still wide open
And my whole being out there stolen

Whatever Happened to Men these Days?

Can't help but become affected of what happened to my friend. What a nice day to start the year eh? Whatever happened to men these days? Where have all their sensitivities gone? Whatever happened to consideration of feelings?

Alright, so I have a friend who had a relationship with a guy for 7 years. Yes, indeed, 7 years and everyone knows how long is that. So they broke up. The guy went cold. She considers the fact that she may have done something very bad in the relationship and never stopped herself on asking why. One day, the guy went cold towards her. The kisses and the hugs were not reciprocated at all and she felt something bad is happening. 

To worsen the situation, she hears a lot of rumors about the guy being seen with other girls. Rumors from RANDOM people. So they eventually broke up. She had a worse time moving on, of course. With all the memories of those years since their college lives together. With all her efforts of saving the relationship thrice. And with all other things.

She tried to encourage the guy to focus on his spiritual life instead of business matters. She tried to encourage him to attend the meetings on time. She tried to advise him to handle money responsibly. She tried to tell him about being careful in decision making. Obviously, the guys seems to be very immature.

I don't want to be biased about the situation, with her being my friend, of course. But...it makes me angry. It makes me conclude that men are deceivers. After 7 months of breakup, the guy posted an IN A RELATIONSHIP status in Facebook without being ashamed of himself!!! What happened to his conscience?

I don't want to rant or something. I don't want to meddle over their matters but hey! He must have considered the girls feelings at the first place. He knows how hard it is for the girl to move on just like that. IS IT REALLY POSSIBLE FOR A PERSON IN A RELATIONSHIP FOR 7 YEARS TO MOVE ON FOR 7 MONTHS? Those who will answer yes are totally DUMB and heartless. Those who liked his status are not thinking. Those who are happy with him entering another relationship while not clearing his past are brainless. They are all brainless. I really believe that unless men apply Bible principles, women won't get hurt. But I guess applications are really hard to do, yes?

If it's easy for men than women, well then, it is really a fact that they are HEARTLESS. And I'm pissed.

Should've Tried Harder

Some think that they deserve more
Give a little like it's become a chore
Don't demand things
Or walk yourself out the door

I fell flat on my face too many times
Left with nothing but some cheap perfume
Now you cry, now you need me
Now that perfume's not cheap
But I told you

If you wanted to be my only one
If you wanted to see this happen
Maybe you, you should've tried harder
If you thought I would leap into your arms
Everytime I would see your face
Then maybe you, you should've tried harder

Go on, prove it, I'd love to see you try
Convince me that you gave me the world
I tried and tried but you never opened your eyes
You stand tall like you've won some kind of award
But really I've never seen someone so short look taller
If you gave me some more
But I told you...

If you wanted to be my only one
If you wanted to see this happen
Maybe you, you should've tried harder
If you thought I would leap into your arms
Everytime I would see your face
Then maybe you, you should've tried harder

Some think that they deserve more
Give a little bit



(Written and Performed by Hey Monday)